Love

I am in love with a woman. Or rather, a gender neutral person I can't help but to see as a woman, try as I might to view her in a neutral light. And yes, I said woman. I am a lesbian. And I'd give just about anything to still be able to pretend to be straight. This is not a choice. But if it was, I'd be straight. Being lesbian is too painful because I've lost too much already. And I will continue to lose things, people and life because of the amounts of distrust, hatred, ignorance, fear and misunderstanding from both sides of the fence. Sometimes, I wish this existence was over.