Love

I am in love with a woman. Or rather, a gender neutral person I can't help but to see as a woman, try as I might to view her in a neutral light. And yes, I said woman. I am a lesbian. And I'd give just about anything to still be able to pretend to be straight. This is not a choice. But if it was, I'd be straight. Being lesbian is too painful because I've lost too much already. And I will continue to lose things, people and life because of the amounts of distrust, hatred, ignorance, fear and misunderstanding from both sides of the fence. Sometimes, I wish this existence was over.

I am...

I am almost 22 years old.
I am the daughter of a Stake President.
I am a sister, a daughter, an aunt, a cousin, a granddaughter.
I am a reader, a writer, a listener.
I am a music lover.
I am protective.
I am shy.
I am learning who I am on my own.
I am stubborn.
I am temperamental.
I am independent.
I am dependent on the approval and acceptance of others.
I am quiet unless I am comfortable with you.
I am a member of the LGBT community.